Is it us who,,got grown up or its parents who is getting old

I have  started writing blog to make myself out of my thoughts..at some point of life we came to know that... things gets change with time..its just not only a old home with lots of wall cracks or seeing your parents getting old in front of you,in today's life we are so busy that,, we do not notice so many things in life,Just want to share my experience with you guys, whoever is reading this i am not a best blogger but i think people can read it and relate to them self,

I being outside from home from last 10 years,,yeah it sounds so much i did my studies than job bas yahi sab, in these days my parents use to came so many times to meet me,i wont say i was actual busy but yeah was somewhere busy in getting settle with my changing environment around  me the journey was tough from Northeastern place  to Northindian than a south india places  it was all a life changing journey,Always being ready with a excuse cant come home,have this and that,..you all can understand how life is when you are struggling to get good job in well know MNC being from technical background.

                  Never thought life will be so different when you grow up so much that ki kal jab tumhre gahr me tumhri ek baat peh bola jatha thaa its big people talk go inside and now they listen to you because you make sense  in your talks,one thing i noticed is when our parents says child grows up and but they are still same for us..are we same is it ? We build a new taste in food because of our surrounding  but one thing never changes  its your mom you may criticism sometimes being a health conscious ohh so much of oil and fry but you cant deny you do not like any changes in their cooking styles you want the same taste.,what usually happens with me or may be with you all ,my mom is great cook no doubt everyone mom, are .so she use to  makes a lovely chicken which was worldwide famous for me,,i still follow her recipe with my cooking so one day she cooked a chicken for me and she thought might be my taste changed so she made changes in cooking and  i said why you made changes in cooking uts different taste now..its just a chicken just take a short stop and thing how you think they will like your changed nature towards them.,,still they adjust.

On my this short vacation when i decided to go my hometown after 10 years,,in starting it was all ok it was just a travel for me but slowly slowly when started reaching my place i was emotional but yeah only difference is now we dnt cry as we are grown enough,my papa came to pick me up from airport than we had a bus travel of 3 hours when i reached bus stop i noticed it was the same, nothing has changed same washroom with dirty smells and same bus counter person, only difference was now my father was having difficulty in getting into bus as its stairs where high i just runned to help him out than he said i am ok will go and bring something for you to eat you might be hungry i said no papa i had a sandwich will go home aur kuch nhi still he forced me and went.Meanwhile i was just thinking just because now i was their i went and tried to help him how they may be  managing from last these years.I said to myself chill i am overthinking its a life, than in bus i hugged my father and slept for hour that was the best sleep that i got in last 10years,So we reached home it was 7pm at night my mom was sitting outside and waiting for us i hugged her than got fresh up and i was just noticing each and everything around me,,everything was same the way i lefted it my toys my gifts showcases,for everything i was saying abithk hai yeah its being years,mom said kya karte we cant through its a memories, i just remembered we are at that stage of life where we buy news things to replace old things,,i holded myself for second and went to get bath than i noticed it was the same bucket, nothing has changes only i changed.

After that i gifted new phone to papa he was happy he smiled at me and said kitne ka hai how much it costed you,he said it have three camera it will be costly kya jarurrt thi,,.i said its ok papa anything for you than i runned towards kitchen to help mom while serving dinner it was same plates, sames glasses again i said ohhh same abithk hai again she said toh kya karee ghar aisa hi hotha hai than i thought after having lots of utensils at room i buy a plates thinking its from IKEA and its Italian it will make me feel good to eat i relished that day its a food not the plates.

We had dinner the way i use to have and all i was doing is noticing the things around me, as mom is not well and she cant do cleaning so decorative things where dirty i have decided i will clean everything morning.Than i thought now its time to sleep i was about to go to bed my mom was still standing i asked kya hua she was like abi bahot kam hai i said kya hai she was like i have to heat milk give to your papa will have too ok and she insisted me to have milk,i also thought ok i dnt have office tommaro lets she her and observe her, than after all the milk sensation she sat on sofa and asked me for a glass of water can you bring please and said see how lazy i am becoming now if you where not their i would have gone, i bought glass of water than she took a plastic cover which was full of medicine in it,,  i said what is this will you have all this daily ohhoo its very much pain for you na get a servant she said nhi beta they cost a lots i said its ok papa earn good or else i will send if you feel too much.She got up from sofa and said ab life yahi hai bas kya hai once you all are settled we will figure out,,,i was still siting on sofa and thinking was i am leaving a life over their 9 to 5 job weekend outing and have a call in day and talk 5mints with my parents and say i am leaving my life,m i doing correct in life,,,than suddenly one sound came sogaye kya it was mom she was asking papa he was like nhi just on facebook watching video, my mom is like aajao sona hai ki you will will sleep later as you might not feel sleepy now again i got into childhood memories when they use ot force us sojaoo,,now they are so understanding but we are not.

Whole night i was so emotional and thinking m i not part of their life even they have changed there life styles so much that we dnt fit into it and even they dnt want us now,,i relished that night nothing has changed for them its a phase of life or i am feeling it more and emotional as my mom and dad are getting old.,,Its not ki they do not need us now  but yeah they started living without us,,its my vacation lets have good memories and spend more time with them,,i closed my eyes and slept,,i want our generation to think on this .Are we doing something wrong with them but its also true that they have sent us outside to get  educated and settled  in life and we  all had a different level of  struggle but what now how to handle this situation any comment on this will be appreciated.